okay i know its not a very new year already, but with the start of 2009, i shall switch to livejournal. please relink me at suitcasememory.livejournal.com!!!
will miss blogger ):
BREAKTHROUGH.
i finally got in.
& it's my first choice.
(even better)
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im really quite fortunate to get into Sanya for my overseas internship program as there were really many of us eyeing for that placement. i thought i didn't had any chances for sanya at all. but WOOHOO! it the last and the best gift before year 2008 ends.
and yea yea,
i know its kind of cheap labour and blah blah.
but my main objective of going there is not to make money and stuff,
i'm there to learn.
and even if the living conditions or whatsoever suck,
i only have myself to blame, cos i made my decision to go there.
but i don't think i'll regret, cos every path you take is another exciting experience. (:
in a blink of eye, 2008 is finally coming to an end.
in this year, i have made many new friends, exposed to new experiences and understand myself even better. life have been good despite s few setbacks and depressing moments. but all has been good.
in year 2009,
i hope i can maintain a strong relationship with my friends and families,
and you guys have been my pillar of strength,
through the good and bad times, you guys have always been there for me.
& i hope i have also played my part in being a wonderful friend to you.
so i would like to make a small list to thank a few people:
bitches!- love you girls to death! you have seen my ups and down, and sometimes have to bear with my moodswings. there's always been a mutual understandings among us, and i really love the way we support one another in our own unique way. you guys have been a HUGE part of my life and i never ever want it to stop. LOVE LOVE! :D
poly cliques- although we are friends for maybe about 1-2 years, but its been great to have such wonderful company and spirit from all of you. from the outings, to card games, mj, volleyball sessions and random chill outs, it was really very enjoyable. (:
eileen chan yuling! - you have been a GREAT GREAT GREAT FRIEND! from primary school all the way till now. its been almost 7 years!!!! how time flies. really grateful to have a friend like you. again, we have such an amazing mutual understanding between us that i can't even comprehend with words. im sure you know how much i cherish you as a friend! although i have always been too crazy to tell you that. (LOL)
who refers to every person who have been in my life. its not just a coincidence to meet one another. i believe everything happens for a reason. thank you for being part of my life and inside my memory lane! (:
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! (:
before i start the post proper, let me present LESTER JACKSON! (impersonator of michael jackson)
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY FIONA!!!!!!! :D
FINALLY 18! (so sorry you met a spastic friend like me)
suprise b'day celebration for feefee! and boy, its really tough makeing her go home
THE BBQ TEAM!
BBQ WARRIORS.
B'DAY GIRL ONE-DAY-ONLY PRIVILEGE: GET SERVED LIKE A PRINCESS! (:
CAUGHT YOU YE SHENG! LOL.
the mastermind. kudos to SHEENA!
AH HIANG AH!
AMANDA! MY TWILIGHT CRAZE PARTNER! :D
AH LIEW!
QIJUN!
STACY!
LOL! INSIDER JOKE.
bbq warriors part3
MAKE A WISH!
(LOOK AT FIONA FACE)
POOL TIME!
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LESTER'S FAVOURITE PHOTO. LOL.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :D
I DON'T KNOW HOW JANICE GOT DRAG INTO THIS
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GRUMPY+WET = NASTY
ME AND MY IMAGINARY FRIEND, SUSIE
BYE Y'ALL.
im gonna cherish every moment of it.
MERRY CHRISTMAS! :D
santa's coming.
sometimes things turn ugly.
i woke up this morning feeling really awful. i felt like disppearing from earth. suddenly all the negative thoughts came back to me today, and i'm suppose to feel hopeful cause i'm gonna prepare my battle for Accounts starting from today. but it seems my soul is broken and im not even ready to carry my weapons.
to be honest, i feel like a weakling today.
well, probably its the weather.
but anyways, sometimes i feel as if i don't get appreciated for anything. sometimes i wonder, if i disappear one day, would people remember me? not remembering me as "oh so she's the girls who did stupid stuff," or "oh so she's the one who fell down on her ass that day" that kind of remembering, but the kind of remembering when you think of something, and you think back of the good old times that we have together, what kind of a significant being i am to you. or am i just somebody who fades away from your memory, like when you see me today, you can't be bothered with me by tomorrow.
sometimes i feel like a shadow. when people talk, they respond. but when i talk, i don't feel the kind of response im suppose to get, but only respond to make me happy. i don't feel like im important or part of something anymore, and that really sucked.
and most importantly, i don't feel YOU anymore. i tried so hard that i seriously give up trying already. i open the doors for you, but you were always finding excuses to not come in. you were a very significant being to me, always giving me your support when i lost someone so dear last year,always stand up for me when i was wronged, always telling me my mistakes and getting me back on track in life.
but now, im not sure anymore. sometimes, i feel that you come talk to me once in a while cause you didn't want to make yourself feel bad. you wanted to convince yourself that you are still there to know eveything about me,that you are still still important to me.
but how about me? i don't feel special to you anymore. i feel like im just an old photograph book being thrown into an old trunk and when you happen to see it, you just flip it open to take a look. im confused, i don't know how to face you anymore, whether to feel happy when you appear again, or to be mad cos i felt neglected. i feel scared.
everyone has their own comfort zone to lean on. for mine, it got lost.
now i think coming online was a bad choice. after i signed in to blogger.com, i started rattling so much-.-
and i feel alright, just that everyone has their bad days, and a rainy saturday morning just happen to be a really bad day for me.
tomorrow shall be a better day(:
winners of the day! the NERDS.
we celebrated jan's bday last week at clarke quay! the theme was suppose to be old school. but as you can see, me and sinyee is the sole winner haha! :D
hope you like the cupcakes! loves! (:
cupcakes i baked for jan! (:
headed back for band camp and saw many familiar faces again! it r4ally great to see everyone again after soooo long, catching up with each other and most importantly playing music together as one again(:
CLARINET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHHHHOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!
memories(:
granny's bday! (:
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elaine's bday!!!!! (:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY! (:
some biennale photos:
feefee and me!(:
su-kong! :D
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QIJUN!
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I DON'T KNOW HOW JANICE GOT DRAG INTO THIS
min's b'day suprise.
we celebrated jan's bday last week at clarke quay! the theme was suppose to be old school. but as you can see, me and sinyee is the sole winner haha! :D
